Struggling with ADHD and depression abroad

I'm back! What a few months I had since I wasn't here!

Hello and welcome back to Sainaslife. Not gonna lie, I am here to nag a little bit. I've got Covid, again! And this is the worst time to be sick for me. I had a quick trip to Istanbul, kinda like a business/leisure trip, and all I got from that, aside from a cat scratch (which was 100% my own fault), was that I brought home a new strain of Covid with me :). The trip was so draining, hours of waiting for the airplane to call for the gate, connections, buses, delays. To be honest, I used to like traveling by airplane, but now I think the quality of airlines has declined so badly and staff are so underpaid, that it's not really worth it to go on a trip.

Okay, let's get back to me and my usual drama. I don't remember when was the last time I wrote for you guys, but man, it's been long! I have been busy struggling with my ADHD, procrastination, and of course, sitting here doing nothing and bashing myself over it.

I think I have some kind of depression. I wanna be honest here and say that a huge chunk of my depression comes from Estonia and in general Europe. The weather is depressing and people are distant, specially if you're a foreigner. The general mood is about bland food and alcohol-surrounded weekends. As if everyone is a freaking robot, they just eat, sleep, repeat. So naturally, a person like me, who wants more of life than surviving, will eventually get depressed. Oh, and let's not forget, I'm unemployed, and getting a job is almost impossible here. Of course, even if you do find a job, as a foreigner your chances of landing that job is much less than a local and you'll be at the end of their list until they absolutely need you. So my plan is to try to move out of here as soon as I can, but also depression and ADHD are really making it difficult for me. That's why I haven't been writing for a while.

From today, I wanna try to be a bit more positive, by not watching news anymore, prioritising myself before anyone else, and reminding myself that it is not my fault that I have been treated poorly, it's theirs:).

It was good venting with you guys, I hope at least you have a great day.

Your bestie,

Saina