Back from a ditch!

Hi y'all, it's been long long, like over 3 months long, but one thing about me is that I always come back. I don't wanna make this long, just came back to keep the blog alive and give you a little update.

As you know, I am Iranian and the past 3 months haven't been easy. Aside from the fact that I was unable to land a job here, which drove me insane, I made the stupid mistake of getting a driving license, and 1300 euros later they annoyed me so much that I didn't even go for the exam. It took a huge toll on me, mental breakdown stuff. The worst day of my life was New Year's Eve, when my fucking neighbor played loud music all day. He does that 24/7 throughout the year, but that night he went overboard as if his life would be any different tomorrow. Anyway, I was under a lot of pressure because of ignorant people and then Iran happened.

You know, as an Iranian, when you forcibly immigrate, you'd think that all your problems are gonna go away, but after a couple of years, you'd realize not only do you have to drag those problems with you, but also you have to deal with the problems in your new country. You're constantly worried about your family and your people, and at the same time, you have to manage your life in the country that you're living in. The internet shutdown was and still is the cherry on top. I haven't been able to see any of my family's faces for 40 days, and I get some news about them from a friend of a friend of a friend. Imagine not having internet for 1 day and then multiply that by 40!!!

Even though I can't say much since my blog is not anonymous, I can just say we're hopeful and we're thankful for the once-in-a-lifetime opportunity that has been given to us by a man in power, and I really hope this ends the way we want it to end. Maybe next year this time when I say I'm Iranian, people will stop gasping like a bunch of uneducated, untraveled children.

As always, see you in the next post!

Best wishes,

Saina.